A Moment

This morning I got to sit and watch my baby sleep. Usually when he wakes up at about five to be fed, I stumble sleepily into his room, take him out of his crib and sometimes doze off while he eats. When he's finished I put him back in his crib and head back to bed myself.

Lately I've been so concerned with getting Parker to sleep in his crib and getting good sleep. Put him to bed while he's sleepy, but not asleep. Do I give him his pacifier or take his pacifier away? Do I go let him cry in his crib or go comfort him? His sleeping habits have become a stressful issue in our lives. But this morning as I was feeding him and he was falling asleep in my arms (a big no no!) I had a (rare) moment of clarity. I'm the mom. I can do what I want! So this morning I just sat and rocked Parker and watched him sleep. It was magical. And when I was done, I brought him into bed with me and cuddled him some more!